TWO YEARS AGO
May 8th, 2006
I awoke this morning thinking about this day, two
years ago. Mick and I woke up together and then he just faded away. I miss him
and I think of him often. The difference is, now, I can remember him and
instead of shedding tears, I frequently smile. I can recollect, not so long
ago, when I believed that I would never smile again.
It's a melancholy day, no doubt, but I
have vowed to try to place more importance on Mick's birthday; June 27th, than
this day; the day he died. I suppose that will become somewhat easier as the
years pass.
My friends and family have been
incredibly patient with me during these last two years. I have both
needed them, and needed them to leave me alone. They have honored these
demands without resentment. For this, I wish to express my sincere gratitude
and admiration.
Today, as I reflect on the last two years of my
life, I am cognizant of the changes that have occurred. I am finally coming to
understand that the adversities and the pleasures we experience, form us into
who we are, what we cherish and how we decide to live. I will always remember
Mick and hold him dearly in my heart. Likewise, I will also resolve to be the
happy, and sometimes wacky, person I once was.
